Lost, a Correspondence, by Kathe Izzo

The following is a the email documentation of a LOST contract transaction with the Love Artist Kathe Izzo. LOST is an adjunct to The True Love Project, and, like TLP, is an ongoing series of private love performances (beginning in April 2002), in which the artist promises to love the world one person at a time, for one day, hour, afternoon or morning at a time.

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: project
Date: November 20, 2003 5:11:04 PM EST
To: [email protected]

hi,

I'm curious about your project
if you have more information, please send it.

sincerely

Carolyn

From: [email protected]
Subject: re: project
Date: November 20, 2003 7:18:04 PM EST
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi carolyn,,

My performance LOST operates pretty much wherever you want it to be, whenever you want it to be.

Lost is an off-shoot of my True Love Project. All of the True Love Projects are designed for an audience of one and based on the concept of direct energetic transmission from the artist (me) or love as art. In other words, we spend time together and, by that time together, we are both transformed. LOST is a more casual Love project, as intimate and/or as friendly as is required, a full gamut of possibilities. We pick a neighborhood or an event and we wander around, separately, talking on our cell phones, looking at things, taking photos or movies, picking up omens, talismans, gifts for each other, simultaneously paying attention to ourselves, each other and our surroundings. This can go on for anywhere between an hour to four hours. It's quite nice actually.

I like to wander around and be outside on my Lost appointments. Think of an event that might be exciting or a neighborhood or location that you like or want to explore.

Love, kathe

PS You can still ask me any questions you like.

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: ps
Date: November 21, 2003 11:37:04 PM EST
To: [email protected]

Hello Kathe,

The problem is that I presently SLEEP in the burbs. 2 hours by bus from downtown. But I do frequently go downtown. . . about a cell phone.. I do have one.. it's a very old one.. I had it when I went to University and believe me that was a while back- like 4 years or something. (in cell phone years that's like.. 85 or something) so I'm not sure it picks up all signals, and I'm also not sure about rates and everything so I will have to look into it. I don't know why my parents hooked it up. There was a time where it made some sense, but (okay it's along story) anyway we'll see about the cell phone thing. I'll put the dates on my calendar and try to organize other errands around that time. If you need to confirm a time, let me know. It might be good if I could just call your cell to check and make sure that all systems are go (shrug)

This is a curious project. What inspired you to think of the idea and want to do it and all that-

Carolyn

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Date: November 21, 2003 11:42:27 PM US/Eastern
To: [email protected]
Subject: PS

Hi again,

is it pronounced "Kathy" or "Kath" or some other way??
and I was just thinking, I suppose if it's on a cell I might be able to do it from home? but then how would we close things. well- it isn't as interesting here as the big city, but I suppose it is where I grew up so it has that going on-
whatcha think.

Carolyn

From: [email protected]
Subject: Re: project
Date: November 22, 2003 8:23:28 PM EDT
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Carolyn,

It really works better if we are walking around in the same neighborhood, and I am only in town for a couple of days, so I won't be traveling outside of downtown.

If you think you might be coming in, you need to have a working cell phone that I can reach you on. I don't like to speak with my participants before their LOST date, so you need to find out if your phone is working, otherwise you could come all the way into the city and we wouldn't have any way to find each other.

Let me know if you are interested in making an appointment. I'm getting a big response, so the times are filling up.

Love, Kathe

From: tlp
Date: November 25, 2003 7:55:38 PM US/Eastern
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: PS

carolyn,

Did you give up, you didn't seem like the kind of girl who would . . I'm just checking in, I don't want you to miss out.

kathe

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: PS
Date: November 26, 2003 1:14:08 AM EDT
To: [email protected]

How perceptive.

No I have not given up at all. But yes I was taking more then five wasn't I..
I've been somewhat engrossed in a project, but also feel I've been going downtown too much and spending money I don't have- which worries me, so I guess that added to my apprehension.

However, I do have plans to be in the city on the 15th (a thursday, yes?) for something in the evening. So my afternoon is open and I can fit into whatever you might have open that day (after about 2 pm)

I just asked my father about my phone and he thinks I'm being silly worrying it won't work, yes it's a dinosaur, but it will work just fine according to him. (I still want to borrow his phone as a back up grrrrr)

I'll attach a copy of what I have been working on, only upload it if you're interested. I know it is only about one page, but the process to getting there involved much chagrin.

talk to you soon.

-c

PS How do you pronounce your name
or more to the point-
how is your name pronounced

Hey Kathe, to give you the context, I was catheterized as a child (well the article will tell you all that) but my uncle is a Doctor and has connections so he has hooked me up with one of the big wigs at Sick Kids to tell my concerns, and this is a rough draft of what I hope to leave with her for reference. I’ve also made a short video on the subject through Inside Out as part of their Queer Youth Digital Video Project. The video is called “(body) part one” you can view it at inside out or at v-tape. (or I can make you a copy if you like).

READ CAROLYN'S PAPER

-you make me smile. If I weren’t so frigid and paranoid I’d send you my love..

From: tlp
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: PS
Date: November 26, 2003 08:37:15 -0400

Carolyn,

I am about to get on the road, so without further processing, let's make a true love appointment for Thursday afternoon at 2. I wanted to give you the option of having a true love afternoon, which means that we meet and spend a few hours together and I fall in love with you for that time, more personal than LOST, no cell phone, doesn't mean any of the traditional definitions of romantic love, but means all of it too, if you don't understand, ask me or check out my website (www.trueloveproject.com).

So either way, in person or on the phone, I have you down for 2 pm Thursday. Pick a neighborhood that is fun/interesting to walk around in . . . I'm new to town, remember.

Love, Kathe

From: xxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: PS
Date: November 26, 2003 12:17:18 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

Thursday at 2 it is!

I will think a bit further on where and whether in person would be best or not.
I'm very excited at the offer
but I want to be realistic with myself too...

I was thinking last night! I want to go to the *SKATE* park as part of this.. (hee hee).. that is my favorite place to be.. (and I don't go often enough) I'm not sure if that would be suitable or not-
it is in a part of town that I visit frequently.. but I'm not sure it is really where I'd place myself exactly..
(shrug)

I'm looking forward to meeting.

I checked your web site out last night.

(shy smile)

-Carolyn

From: tlp
To: xxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: PS
Date: November 26, 2003 13:29:39 -0400

I love the skate park idea, let's make that happen somehow, in person or not
love, k

From: [email protected]
Subject: Re: PS
Date: November 26, 2003 9:52:22 PM EDT
To: xxxxxxxxxxx

Is there somewhere I can rent skates?

From: xxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: PS
Date: November 26, 2003 11:04:22 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

no. There isn't.

(shaking of head)
I know.. I'm sorry.. asking you to bring them was ridiculous (lol) what can I say SOMETIMES- I get a little carried away.

The skate park doesn't open on weekdays until 3pm.

(hee hee hee..)

so- whatever. If we Do go there is always the option of sharing my skates (if they fit you, how big are your feet?).
I am not the sort of person who gives a dam about wearing someone elses warmed up sweaty skates, but I know it isn't everyone's bag. Option two would be for me to attempt the skateboard.. but I wouldn't really have any fun doing that. I'd probably just wait till you had had your fun and wear the sweaty skates afterwards.

If all else fails I can get you a sticker? how's that. (ha ha)

btw- I know what you look like-
I feel like I have an unfair advantage
wanna see some semi-likness pictures of me?
They're leaftovers from a previous web site.. let me see..

http://giofreed.tripod.com/skater.html

anyway-

goodnite Kathe
pleasant dreams

Carolyn

From: tlp
To: xxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: PS
Date: November 27, 2003 13 7:28:33 PM EDT

carolyn,

I'm sorry I am so slow . . just read the document you sent me and I am curious . . . with such intense trauma, why you are attracted to my project. Not that I don't think it is a good idea, but, as I am a complete stranger, and you have inherent and reasonable trust issues, why you feel safe enough to participate. Is it just intuitive? Curious.

kathe

From: xxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: PS
Date: November 27, 2003 9:05:15 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

(grin)
I wondered if you had read it or not...

well-
The article is for the hospital. Perhaps it was not the best way to disclose something like that to you, because the language I used in the document is not at all the language I would use myself if I was talking to a friend.

I do struggle a lot with love. I'm not sure I have a healthy relationship to it-
I feel drawn to women who are older and together and very "nice" and "sweet" who in my perception resemble the nurses who invaded me. and that really isn't a good place to try to start building some sort of mutual loving relationship.
So I'm trying to expand my options a little bit I suppose.

I have read many books on SM, and some on polyamory, but for me it is an intelectual exploration. I take what is useful to me and helps me communicate better. I try not to get too warped by the information I often get on subjects that don’t apply, but often that happens- (lol)

Like every person, labels and events and clothing styles- are a temporary means toward trying to make sense of who I am.

I need love too-
I also need to be held and cuddled and affirmed just like anybody else. But “regular” old people out there tend to either be afraid to touch me, (because I pull away at times that they find odd), or are simply ignorant and disrespectful, and barge through very clearly built baracades. In a community where these things are discussed openly I find I feel much safer that I can reject unwanted contact with a bit more precision and much less grief about it.

But in truth-
I responded to the project out of a simple spark of curiousity
And have been quite pleasantly surprised

I'm very curious to see what I might learn from you, and/or from the experience of you and what you do.

I hope that helps

Any further concerns are fine-
by all means say whatever you feel you need to.
And if you aren't comfortable with the idea of meeting in person anymore- feel free to change your mind.

It's important to me that our time together-
however it unfolds
leaves you feeling good.

From: [email protected]
Subject: Re: PS
Date: November 28, 2003 2:21:40 PM EDT
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey Carolyn,

I wanted to thank you for sharing your photos, your life and your ceaseless entertaining mail. I am really looking forward to our appointment.

I'm on the road already with not much time for correspondence, unfortunately. I will be in touch on Monday. Please forward your phone number, a location (with good directions) and your confirmation of our starting time of 2 pm on Thursday.

Let me know if we will meet in person, or perform LOST with cell phones. If we are doing LOST, we need to have a large enough area with other people around so that we can be lost, small enough so that we can be found.

Happy Thanksgiving, Kathe

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Happy Thanksgiving to you too-
Date: November 28, 2003 4:47:59 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

Dear Kathe,

When I picture myself doing lost I really see myself with my eyes closed in a quiet place while you wander around in the busy streets. When I visualize a true love afternoon I picture something something very reiki like while occasionally sharing thoughts perhaps at a park under a tree or something. These are of course my interpretations, based on what I have read.

If we were to hang out on the busy streets I just think I would be either distracted and worried about various things.. remain aloof, and/or just stay in a silly space and have my guard up against the kind of energy that the project is about. I just doubt that that would work. I think I really need to focus to be able to really participate.. but that may change-

2 o clock. Thursday.

this should be interesting! (lol)

-Carolyn

From: tlp
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: Happy Thanksgiving to you too-
Date: November 29, 2003 08:22:48 -0400

carolyn,

The directions sound kind of complicated but I will check it out when I can get to some kind of map.

I don't mind if you are sitting somewhere outside and I am walking around, I like to be quiet in myself and be in the world, when there is a lot to look at, distraction, I sometimes find a quieter self.

It's totally ok to be silly by the way.

Please try not to have a lot of expectations about what this is. I'm totally about anything that happens being perfect, that we are ok exactly the way we are, even if that feels superficial. We cannot fail.

I will check in later in the week,

Love, kathe

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re:
Date: November 29, 2004 12:42:28 AM EDT
To: [email protected]

> Please try not to have a lot of expectations about what this is.

yah.. I know.. I'm trying to be mindful of that...

> I will check in later in the week,

> love, kathe

(sad) don't sign off with a small letter K-
you are important!

I probly will want to walk around-
I used to live in the annex
I have many stories
(and if you haven't noticed already)
I LIKE TO TALK
(lol)

C-

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: (no longer an "emergency email")
Date: December 1, 2003 3:34:28 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

About fifteen minutes ago I had a pretty major show down around the fact that I am busy at 2pm on thursday. so I just think I would like to tell you about it-

Kathy-

I am quite SERIOUSLY unemployed right now.
I've kept myself busy with job applications, school applications, weighing my options, getting reference letters etc. but mainly the only work I have is work I create for myself.

Today I called my temp agent and she had work for me, I had about half an hour between hearing about it and getting the offer confirmed. I decided- if a dentist appointment was too much for them? no way. Besides- hopefully it will start next week. They called back, the job was day shifts wed, thurs, fri only. I told them thursday I have an appointment, as a result I won't be working.

(shrug)

no big deal or anything

I just thought you should know...
I maybe should have said something when we originally set things up.

I'm going to go for a walk now..
I need to get out of the house

peace

C

From: tlp
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: (no longer an "emergency email")
Date: December 2, 2003 08:22:48 -0400

Carolyn,

It would not hurt my feelings if you need to work. Love yourself, you probably
need to hear that, make yourself first, always.

K

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: "emergency email"
Date: December 2, 2003 1:31:37 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

no no- Don't be silly,
missing out on your project is by far the more masochistic of the two options.

no- the issue was about flexibility. I am under the impression that your schedule is rather full and that moving to another time would not have happened.

I wouldn't have that!

(silly)

ha ha

c

From: [email protected]
Subject: Re:
Date: December 3, 2003 10:44:23 PM EDT
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxx

I will probably drive. . . is this an area where we can wander separately, or are you coordinating a meeting . . it's not clear, again I caution you, I am just a regular person much like yourself, just so you are not disappointed, my work is a lot like regular living . .

love, Kathe

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re:
Date: December 4, 2003 11:36:04 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

I'm sorry, I have had my moments where I've been taking this whole project things a bit too seriously.
Not to mention yesterday I got a call from a creepy guy who is stalking me- so I was a little out of sorts. I'm sorry I had to
or that I did, share my shitty day with you like that.

Until tomorrow then-

C

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Date: December 8, 2003 12:33:16 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

Kathe,

(what to say.. what to say..)

after our afternoon I felt this lingering feeling of wanting to snuggle up with you.
It made me sad..

I'm curious about somatics now
but even more I feel that being involved in your project put me face to face with some things about my present self that I am not so happy with.

I know I shared too much with you (devilish grin)
and I knew I was going to, I was trying hard to hold back
but it is so very easy to talk to you
and I'm still in a phase where I am hungry for a listening ear.
I'm sorry if I overwhelmed you or anything.

I think I'm going to really work on reconnecting to an old friend named Lita.
Lita IS part of the whole slutty poly SM thing, but she has a very refined side too-
She is someone whom I am very easily and naturally a very "cavalier" character with, and I really do love acting that way. There aren't many friends I can let go with like that. I miss her
and I think she is important for me to have around.

Thank you
Kathe
for sharing yourself with me.

Love
carolyn

From: [email protected]
Subject: Re:
Date: December 9, 2003 10:44:23 PM EDT
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

c,

Thanks for your note. Don't worry about sharing too much, that was just you and I appreciated it.

I hope you are well and caring for yourself today,

love, Kathe

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: hi-
Date: March 21, 2004 12:18:42 AM EDT
To: [email protected]

Hey Kathe,

long time no e-

I had a flash of really wanting to come to your thing in New York, but I just knew I couldn't afford it. (sad) I am working now though.. just temp shit, but I really don't have much direction in life right now.. so I guess it's okay for me to just stay put for a while.

I think about you sometimes..
I was telling a friend about it, I mentioned the "age issue"
she said "was that the end of the date??"
I thought about it for a second "uhhhh... yah- ya know what? I didn't really realize it at the time but it was totally the end of the date ya" (lol)
I guess I kina wonder how you feel about it.. I get the impression that at the time it kina took you by surprise (ha ha).

How do you feel about it now?

I love you-

Carolyn

From: [email protected]
Subject: Re: hi-
Date: March 22, 2004 10:40:30 PM EDT
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey carolyn

thanks for writing me. I was thinking of you recently. I have to say, I don't really remember the "age issue" -- was it a remark or an exchange . . please refresh my memory, I hate to forget things. Did I respond strangely to something . . . age is really not an issue for me and the true love project is not about my personal preferences anyway. I will love anyone, as long as they ask me to. And I mean that completely. I think you might have misunderstood the parameters of what we were engaged in and I'm sorry if I lead you to believe that there was the opportunity for anything other that what we were meeting for that day. I am really interested in what you thought was happening, before, during and after. It is all very interesting to me. Because I fall in love with so many people does not mean I do not care. It sounds kind of kitschy to say I was moved by your trust, but I was and I hope I thanked you.

You told me so much, and I have thought of your stories often, I wish you would let me write about the day. I know you said I could write about it if I showed you first, but I can't really write that way, I need to write from my heart. I can fictionalize the day if you feel uncomfortable giving me permission to write about you, so that it would not be able to be closely identified. In either case, I needn't use your last name or anything like your email address or anything like that. You can think about it, but believe me when I tell you your story should be told in some form.

Ask me the question you were curious about again (the age issue), I'm not really sure what you are asking me.

I hope you're well, here are some photos I like.

love, kathe

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: hi-
Date: March 23, 2004 12:01:06 AM EDT
To: [email protected]

Hey Kathe-

Thanks so much for the pictures! My hotmail account is totally maxed out so I have to fix that, and it's been making me a lil itchy today knowing emails likely weren't getting through, but it's totally worth it. Admittably I have a hard time with pictures of myself, but I really want to get over that. I see what you mean about the colours- the red and the green.. the tea bag looks like some freaky looking fish at a quick glance (lol)

The age issue . . . I had a weird time trying to figure out where the line was around that being our last topic of conversation. On one hand it seemed we had spent enough time together at that point, on the other- I got the impression you thought I was older then I am and the truth came as a bit of a shock. But if you say it doesn't matter to you then hey- it's all good.

I've REALLY been enjoying the CD by the way-
I actually do have one of her songs on a Lilith Fair compilation.
I'm thinking about making a short with my buddy tomorrow (I hope he's game) of me skating at my fav park- wearing some goofy nintendo costume kiddy stuff (tee hee) I was thinking of painting my helmet like a tortise shell similar to the mushroom man in super mario 2 and then doing a skater video to the music from the game. Like I say we'll have to see if logistics work out.
So often I get the message from people that my kid side is inappropriate. I just find it fun and natural- sometimes it is a way of putting some distance between myself and an issue.. I'll naturally do it in some situations and I feel it really makes the intolerable tolerable (shrug)

The writing question-
yah- go ahead write whatever you like.
I feel safe that you have a trustable perspective of things. I just get nervous sometimes
I've lost a lot of friends over my choices-
but then
they aren't you, so I have to remember that.

I like the picture I took of you-
The expression on your face is a very accurate expression of the energy of our conversation. (I think anyway)

One part of our conversation stuck with me a bit
I asked you to lay out some black and white about boundaries and you found the question a bit harsh.
your words "I will never forget you" really stuck
LIKE GLUE!!

You float through my mind from time to time..
I admit I would really like to see you again someday-

There was something very intimate about our time together.

And I definitely feel a bond to you.
Bye bye for now

Love C xo

From: [email protected]
Subject: Re: hi-
Date: June 21, 2004 11:19:17 AM EDT
To: xxxxxxxxxxxx

carolyn,

I have kind of an unusual request to make of you. Please be honest in your reply.

I was invited to contribute something of my work to a site called www.intheconversation.com. It's a pretty obscure website where people write about their work, you can check it out. I wanted to put our dialogue up as an example of my work, rather than my writing about it, which I haven't done yet anyway, nothing much besides some notes. Although people seem to get a lot from my writing, it is the relationships themselves that reveal the heart of what I do.

I would obviously remove your name and email address and any reference to where you live. I would love to keep the links to your skating pictures and I would also like to use some of the pictures from the day. Unless someone you knew came to the site, which is probably a pretty slim chance, I think you would have a lot of privacy around it.

This work brings up so many questions about privacy and I cannot answer them all. On the one hand, I believe my work is about you, the person I 'fall in love with' and that you are my primary audience, but at the same time, the days and moments are so profound and beautiful in their overlying form and in their exquisite details it is a shame not to share them. Really the best art is art that does not mimic life, but is life itself, don't you think. It is a huge compliment that I would love to share our dialogue as an example of my art. We made great honest art together and I think it will be transformative for other people.

Think about it. Another, heavier thing is whether or not to include your article or whether you want to write a synopsis for me. I totally understand this being difficult for you, but it makes the trusting love of our relationship all the more beautiful.

I am up for whatever you feel about this. I can always work with someone else.

Thanks for everything, love, kathe

From: [email protected]
Subject: Re: hi-
Date: June 23, 2004 08:35:17 AM EDT
To: xxxxxxxxxxxx

carolyn,

I haven't heard from you, and now I am a little nervous. I hope my request did not upset you and that you are just busy . . It was a huge compliment, I remind you again and I would use the utmost care.

If you don't want to be involved in this way, it is totally ok, so please voice your concerns. The thing that is different with you is that we had more of a True Love Day than a Lost appointment and I usually send out a questionnaire when people contact me for a TLD in which I ask their permission to use the documentation of the day and the time preceding in my artwork. Lost is a little more casual, we just happened to have a more intense experience and I never sent you the questionnaire.

No one has ever complained about my use of the material, I want to add. They have all been happy with the way it was handled. Also, the dialogue works perfectly without your essay, so it really doesn't have to be included. I found the writing and experience powerful and thought others would as well, that is why I asked.

Please respond either way, I would hate for there to be a misunderstanding between us.

love, kathe

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: hi-
Date: June 24, 2004 8:14:49 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

No no No no No!

(shaking of head) (sad) it's nothing like that at all!
I actually wrote you a very excited reply- that was totally like: Go for it!! woo hoo!!
and then I looked at it and thought it was kinda long.. I was just coming off being stoned for the first time and was having weird experiences-

so I thought I should sit on it for a bit-
first to let the drugs wear off, and by then I thought I should just sit on the idea for another day or two.

I'd like evaluating from your end too Kathe- I wish I had a "fomal questionaire" myself. I've been trying to think how to word my questions. I'm not sure I will quite get at what I want to know-
but I'm curious

oh!- go ahead by the way- post away! post away!! ha ha
no no- I have had bad experiences with local loser types, but you aren't one of those, and likely the people who would visit your site wouldn't be either (did I save that email?? I'll check when I'm done)

I'm curious-
to know if you felt well recieved for what you were giving.
Do you know what I mean-
did it make you feel good about what you do to spend time with me. That is something that I think is very important, but no two people are made to fit perfectly into eachother so it is always challenging. I worry that I drain too much energy out of you. And if I have- I'm sorry. I wasn't working at the time we started exchanging emails and I had a lot of time on my hands. Time can be a major factor when it comes to being poly. I hope you didn't feel that it was more time/energy then you were comfortable with.

and any other comments or feelings that you want to share I would be really glad to hear too. I'm big on the self-improvement stuff. And I also want to work on relationship/listening skills.

anyway- I'll see if I have that other email.

just a sec-

C

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: Re: hi-
Date: June 24, 2004 10:13:07 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

> carolyn,

> I have kind of an unusual request to make of you. Please be honest in your reply.

My honest reply is this:

according to M Scott Peck (I've looked this up recently) Transference is:

"that set of ways of perceiving and responding to the world which is developed in childhood and which is usually entirely appropriate to the childhood environment (indeed often life saving) but which is INAPPROPRIATELY -transferred- to the adult environment"

OR (in this case) set of ways of perceiving and responding to one environment that is appropriate to living here in my little town, or working in a conservative United Church, or being a member of my extended loser family -or -or -or

which is INAPPROPRIATELY TRANSFERRED to the downtown punk environment (this is why I need to get out more)

Dude-
I just had to check in for a second.
Nobody who is following your stuff is going to react like the morons I am dealing with at home on a regular basis.

Go nuts
and thank you for putting me through the discomfort of being faced with the question in the first place. it was a good exercise.

Now if I could just figure out how to make money doing something other then driving a fork-lift (well it's much more complicated then that but you get the picture) and get the heck back to the city where I belong-- life would likely be very different.

I'm sorry I got squirmy in the first place!

But yes- challenge is good!

I think I'm going to go now.
I'm sorry I let you get nervous (sad) I hope yur all bedder now..

and one more thing
DON'T SPELL MY NAME WITH A SMALL C! :)
I AM IMPORTANT!!
AND DON'T SPELL YOUR NAME WITH A SMALL K!!
YOU ARE IMPORTANT TOO!!!!! :D

BAAAAAAAAAaaaaa (lol)

Goodnite-

Love

carolyn (i'm feeling sheepish- ha ha)

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Date: June 24, 2004 11:27:40 PM EDT
To: [email protected]

The article too! (the article too!)
Go Ahead Man-

POST IT ALL!! BAAAAAAAAAAaaaa

(ha ha)

okay so that didn't flow out as nicely as it did in my head ten minutes ago.. but you get the "basic idea" I'm sure!

chow-

C

From: [email protected]
Subject: Re:
Date: June 27, 2004 1:58:21 PM EDT
To: xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Carolyn,

thanks for letting me print everything, I sent a slightly edited version to intheconversation eliminating your email and location informantion, but I haven't heard from them yet, I hope they like it . .

I'll let you know, I'm also going to put it up on my website under True Love Archive but that will take a few weeks probably because I have to create the date base for that, I might put up just a little excerpt under participant responses while I'm waiting, check in a week or so.

thanks again for everything, love you, kathe

From: xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Date: June 29, 2004 12:13:20 AM EDT
To: [email protected]
Subject: Re:

(hee hee)

love you too babe-

C

Kathe Izzo is a writer, lover and conceptual artist. In addition to her private love work, she is currently in collaborative relationships with peacock!revolution!is!our!revolution! and be something. For love appointments and inquiries: [email protected]

Comments

[monique la cour]

Carolyn is magnificently inspiring... i was so excited to discover the TLP... a primrdial resonance drove me to contact
kathe... i haven't checked the site in a while, so what was initially piqued resurfaced while i read about Carolyn... i find myself in a similar state, re: living a life without myself attached, and fighting that child always hiding in the sand... i wish the best to Carolyn in her search for love, and establishing the life she deserves (in the city, where she's confortable,) as i'm attempting to do the same (again, yes again...)
thank you Carolyn for sharing, and Kathe for all you are and do!

love,
mo

[Anne Walk]

i love this project.

it reminds me of my own one to one performances.

i will be posting on this find at my own blog. i'd also be interested to know of any other one to one performances kathe is undertaking... kathe, if you're reading this, feel free to email me!